This year I have been reading through the chronological Bible. It has been interesting. Right now I am in Leviticus which while not my favorite book has had some really interesting things to say that have struck me at this point in my life. As I come up to and hit anniversary days and time frames for life over the last year it has been interesting to me to see how I respond to them. I know I am going thru the normal steps and bumps and falls that accompany grief but it is still not fun. I think as we moved and are now settling in at the same time as these anniversaries are hitting it is like a double whammy. Of life. I have had some of the most random thoughts thru my head. Some good. Some crazy. Some totally against every thing I stand for. But God is always right by me. no matter what I do. No matter what choice I make. Some choices may hurt me. Some may hurt Him. Some will bless both. But in Leviticus this morning I was reading about redemption. It was interesting how no matter what or why the person had to sell or give up their land it could always be redeemed. It just really struck me that God can always redeem us. He wants us to have all the riches of his kingdom. Sometimes I do something foolish and forget that for a while but He is always there waiting to help me redeem ME. He has extended so much GRACE. He wants me to want HIM. But he also knows that we are His creation. He knows that we are dust and are totally going to fail Him sometimes. But he loves us anyway.
My Mom has been sending out notes to all of us kids over the last few months and it is always interesting to read them. To see a bit of our corporate grief. To see where we are at in life and know that we are not alone and that we are all OK. To know that we are all different. To know that we will all have good days and bad days. Make good choices and bad choices. But always be willing to extend a hand of love and of help and of grace and mercy to all who are around us.
