A Sucker Punch

Just a few emotions I have had in the last few days.
Shock . . . Love! . . . Why are my eyes so puffy? . . . MY Dad? . . . Sad!. . . Aggressive Cancer? . . .  I am so tired . . . Can we rewind? . . .  Is this a bad dream? . . . WHAT? . . . LOTS OF LOVE!!! . . . Supported . . . Cared for . . . Prayed for . . . PEACE . . . Reeling . . . Chemo . . . Radiation . . . Confusion . . . Grace! . . . So glad for the trip to Mongolia this summer with my Dad! . . . Sad! . . . Prayed for . . . Stage 4 . . . 14 -16 months . . . Balding . . .Care . . . Love . . . Sadness . . . Lost . . . Tears . . . PEACE . . . Knowing that God is really in control . . . Cancer? . . . Pray! . . . Can I wake up now? . . . This is reality! . . .love! . . . What is on the Bucket List? . . .Off my axis . . . Peace. . . Family is amazing! . . . Numb . . . love . . . Spinning . . . That is too short! . . . Will the Doc be right?. . . Comfort . . . Sad . . .Making plans . . . Grace  . . . Incredibly blessed! . . . Peace . . . Joy . . . Love!

Dad went in to the ER last Saturday because he was unsteady adn could not walk well.  He had some tests done and by Sunday afternoon had a surgery scheduled for Monday morning first thing to have a brain tumor removed that was the size of a lemon.  We were on the road headed down there on Monday afternoon.  As you can see there are many emotions in this sort of thing!  I have never walked this road before, and did not know I ever would!  As we head into the the next months of treatments and special times, it is with a new look at the Tim McGraw song - Live like you were dying!  You look at what is really important.  You look at the things you want your son to remember about Grandpa.  You look at your family and are SO immeasurably blessed to have a family who love and support each other, who look and say how can we help and give of themselves to help and love and show love to others!  What a blessing!  So even as we are all reeling from this shock we are standing together to sway and hold each other up  as we realize that God has this whole situation in hand!  He can calm the storm or he can calm his children!  What a blessing!